Thursday, January 22, 2009

My Life Without Her

we've been together for years....i felt like i knew everything about you...your condition,what you like,what you don't,your health,and i thought i knew everything about you, but i was wrong...

in times like this, i kept on remembering our happy times...our sweet memories together...how you hate to wake up from your sleep...how you really love sleeping, how people react when we were together.....yes....people really tend to get jealous everytime they see us...we are such a perfect couple...and i hate the fact that i love you...

i am sorry if it always about me...come to think of it, yeah, it was always about me...i am sorry that i did not treat you the right way...sorry i did not treat you with respect, sorry that i always force you to do all those things you hate...sorry if sometimes i brag about you to my friends and you hate it...yeah i hate it as much as you do...it is just i am just so proud to have you beside me everytime,everyday...all day and all night...

for the last 3 days...i am so miserable like hell...i no longer have any hands to hold...you are gone..
i miss your bronze color sport shoe that i bought for you....(though it is still on loan from the kindest loan shark ever).....though what i have for you is not made in japan items...but i knew deep down inside, you love it don't you?

every girl loves expensive brands...expensive accessories,i am sorry i cant afford to buy you all those things that you want...i am sorry again that i am too poor to buy you anything from japan or italy ....what i can buy for you is just fake items and accessories...sorry again....

sorry again if i am the reason for you to be warded...i am so sorry....but dear, i have done everything i could, and i know you know that.....i regularly checked your temperature,took you for medical check up every once in a while.....i have done my very best to make sure you will stay fit and healthy....

i went back to kuala lumpur but my heart stays with you in seremban...

3 days in Kuala Lumpur without you was like 3 years in prison...i cant stand the pain, the loneliness,the everyhting...life for me was never perfect...but without you it turned out to be worst...is that love?

when i came back from KL just now...you came and pick me up...that has made me the happiest man in the world...i am glad that you are back from your sickness...you look healthy now...but,... rather unfit....i dont know...we have to wait till tonight....

Love is not blind - it sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less.-Rabbi Julius Gordon

6 comments:

perutkubulat said...

hek eleh mok,
lek arr,
proton saga ko tu bukan ke mana pon.
Die sakit sket je,
Xyah arr risau memanjang.
hahaha

Shahriza said...

adoi....shhhhh kantoi la nanti..
iswara k bukan saga hahahaaah kopak duit den la labuuuuuu

..me ~ cik sara.. said...

ek eleh..bru nk ckp shuwwitt nye ko..
cehh
keta upenye

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juz me.. said...

iye ke ni??
hmm hmm..maybe someday ley eksperimen..lolzz~

Shahriza said...

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