someone has to answer this question and that someone is definitely me.
the night was dark, darker than black, and i couldnt see anything.
Perhaps, it was really a gloomy night, or it was just because i closed my eyes.
A future is up for me to decide and i still had not make any decision.
i havent been in this kind of situation for years.
The hardest decision making process that i have succesfuly gone through for this past few years was:
1. where to eat, and;-
2. where to shit if i wasnt at home.
Now, the problem is harder than to find a good place for dinner, or the best place to shit.
Maybe there will be solutions after i eat and shit.
Or there may be nothing at all.
To try something new in life,and to have a fresh start on something new is a good idea. A better opportunity and at par with what i'm trying to have now.
But to left and abandoned something that i have failed over and over again doesnt feel right for me. I may look like a loser and i wasnt born that way. I have pride.
Its hard to let go off something that is unconsciously had become your norms.
Though deep down inside, we know that it wasnt meant to be.
Future is not written the way we want it to be.
Its an idea. :-
1.Along the way of writing a piece, many things could happen and ideas could fade.
Something may come along the way, and the ending may not be in the same manner as the way the writer planned earlier.
Sometimes the earlier idea has vanished, replaced by either a solid ending or solid regret.
2.A stubborn writer may stick to the main idea up till the end, though it doesnt hold any significant anymore towards the tales. A lousy piece.
Though a piece may be lousy, it doesnt mean that it did not have any commercial values. It may turn into a major success instead of major flop.
OK...The way i see it, as long as people is happy with it, we may be happy.
Only and only if, satisfaction is not in the maths of art.
This is by far, the most dramatic post i ever wrote.
My pride is ecstacy, addictive and i need a rehab, please. - Rizwan