ShahrizwanZainal

The toxicity of a city...of a city...... Psycho groupie, cocaine crazy makes you high makes you high..... Pull the tapeworm out of your ass........ *********** Somewhere in the rural side of Malaysia...a group of kids were yelling and screaming to the rhytm of the Armenian American Band, SOAD. It was during prep class where everybody were supposed to study for their exams. With walkmans, earphones, hairstyles and 'selipar jepun', they gather around a table and became an eyesore to those who wanted to study. One kid was pretending to hold a drum stick and smack the drum set, while the other two had their hand in the position of holding and playing the guitar. Serj Tankian and Darron Malakian wannabe. The others, they watched and sing along. Those were the days they rebel and care less about the rules and regulations. Rules are meant to be broken. "We are chanting and singing for world peace" argued one of those kids when people started to terrorized the group with word...

Ok..this is crazy. I bought a ticket to padang. Alone. My first attempt on solo backpacking! Wish me luck guys!!!

Kenyang Aku melantak. Breakfast, 2 weddings, 2 Teas..gila Letih Aku drive all the way, to Sg Besar, patah balik ke Taman Tun, Kelana Jaya, Seremban balik Insaf Dengar cerita orang balik Mekah. Insaf. Cuak Aku terfikit balik, though I may sound ridiculous, but who knows what would wait for me if I ever visit the Holy City. Terharu Makcik aku cakap, dia lambai dekat Kaabah sambil panggil nama aku. In other words, she prayed for me to visit The Holy City. Rasa terharu gila. Denial Aku cakap dekat makcik aku, aku belum sampai Paris lagi. Sedar All the way balik ke Seremban aku fikir and recall segala dosa salah dan silap. Memang hina. Sehina hina Manusia. Aku sedar. Lupa Ya, Melayu mudah lupa. Aku harap aku ingat.

I am panting and i was struggling to breath, As though the infinite amount of Oxygen in the air were not sufficient for me. My eyes were all blurry. My wet t-shirt add on another few kilos on my body. With a glass of water, i walked around the circle. I took a deep breath and i let go. Each time, i felt a little bit better. "My friend, you look fit. I see your changes" said the old man with spare tyre. smiling, my reply was simple "i havent lose any weight for 3 months ++..Plateu and i dont give a damn". It was Late September. 7 Months after my jogging routine and 3 Months after i started working. Frankly, working life will screw your diet and lifestyle. Trust me. "My friend, have you try any of the girls here?" the old man asked. By this point of conversation i cannot help but laugh. I am not Barney Stinson who will go and approach girls with somekind of an interesting story and do whatever it takes to score whole in one. I wish I am. "Chee Sin, you ...

Aku bangun dari katil. Pusing badan kiri kanan, kanan kiri sampai keluar bunyi krekk krekk krekk...stim siot. Terus aku sarung keramat, pakai spender dan keluar rumah. Sampai dekat mapley, aku jalan mendada. Mata mata galak pandang aku. Aku rasa macam artis. Aku duduk...seminit tengok skrin...2 minit.....39 minit.....45 minit........sejam setengah........dua jam..... Aku bangun tapi semua orang pandang aku lagi. Suara sumbang buat bising belakang kepala aku.."bang, pakai baju blackpool lepas nih" aku balik bukak seluar dan tido pakai baju keramat sambil senyum.

Bunyi dengung bermain main di cuping telinga. Aku fokus. Aku mesti pejam mata. Aku mesti tidur. Aku gagal. Aku buka buku baca. Buku baca aku. Sebenarnya aku ingat aku dah merdeka. Bebas daripada jajahan. Bebas daripada apa sahaja yang mengikat. Lalu sampai aku di alam lain. Sebijik seketul sama macam alam yang aku lepak sekarang. Aku sendiri tak tahu aku ada di alam lain. ************* Lebih setahun lalu, aku dalam kancah pergolakan. Penjajah menjajah segalanya dan habis sumber hasil bumi diangkut. Permainan mereka hebat. Entiti bagaikan superhero. Mahu menyuburkan tanah gersang, mahu berkebun memberi hasil. Memberi harapan pada fakir. Benda yang paling kejam dalam dunia ialah apabila harapan ditarik balik. Baik tak payah bagi harapan langsung. Dan dengan suka hati entiti datang dan pergi, fakir terpinga pinga. Memang kaki dia tak boleh duduk diam. Nak dipotong kaki, diikat, dan dipaksa, tapi fakir bukan macam tu. Aku duduk dalam rumah terbaring atas lantai, kotak suara dah habis. Aku ...